This sem was totally different from the past few sem. I love spending every moment with B not bcoz I'm very clingy. It's bcoz other than spending time with him, the rest of my time deduct away my sleeping time, traveling time and food time, I spend it on studying. Spending time together with B help me to take away all the stress as well as the only period I'm not spending it with my books. :>

Common test coming up in 2 weeks time and I just screwed up my 20% test yesterday. I can never ever read lines plan or even drawing. What's wrong with me :-( Why the hardest paper have to be the first paper or even after 2-3 papers? There's not enough time to prepare for all the papers... Need a getaway, need some break time from all these studying. I need my holiday:-( Really really don't want to fail any module this sem...

Where's all my determination to quit smoking... Bored, smoke. Hungry, smoke. Tired, smoke. Happy, smoke. Sad, smoke. Drink, smoke. Club, smoke. Walk, smoke. Wait, smoke. Alone, smoke. Break, smoke. Study, smoke. Before break, smoke. After break, smoke. Talk, smoke; etc

I'm sick of pretending something I'm not. I'm sick of pretending I'm fine. I always think too highly of myself that I can handle every single thing but I was so wrong. I couldn't, I can't even save myself when the world came crumbling down. I succeed in convincing myself that I'm fine really but how long am I going to stay this way?

I'm not as strong as you think I am. I'm not as happy as you think I am. Sometimes I'm wondering whether if I really deserve to be so upset and why my world always crumble down. But that's my life, that's my fate that I can't escape right?

Too much thoughts that can't be convey into words and too much thoughts that I don't even have the guts to express myself.

I just want to drop everything and leave

Losing grip

You can be reckless with my heart, you can wreck my heart, you can break everything I am. Go on and do whatever you want to my heart. I'm not hiding, I'm not escaping. Just here for you to tear me apart and break me. That's how much I love you that I'm willing to let you completely destroy me

Fishing x Bedok Jetty

 

Yayz to Bedok Jetty for fishing! Caught a total of 8-9 mini ikans and in the end we donated it to the stray cat. At least it's better than our first failure woodlands fishing trip.

Looking at the planes flying by, it really make me wna travel to somewhere and settle down. Sometimes I just keep on wondering if there's anything left for me to stay here. Though yes, but then how long it gna keep me here? You are one of the reason that I'm staying bcoz I don't bear to be apart from you, I want to be next to you every single day. Not even a mile apart from you.

Sonar

Some chill night out with my cousins as well as Peiling &co. It's been really awhile since I saw my cousins but still, we always have never ending topic to talk about. :-)

Foodie

Tried baking peanut butter cupcake with marshmallow frosting. It turn out gr8 though it's a lil salty. And thanks B for the mega pack of pepero just bcoz I don't bear to buy it for myself as well as I love it! 8)

Chapter 11

Time flies and it's already the end of 3rd week of school. So this had been a rough and hectic week for me. Internship gna start right after my majors for this sem. I choose Keppel, Jurong Shipyard as well as ST Marine for my intern. Hopefully I can get into any of this bcoz they are located in tuas. Imagine I'm posted to SMOE or Sembawang and everyday work start at 0730...

FYP gna start right after my intern which means there's no more long holiday for me. Nuuu, anyway bcoz of FYP grouping, there's some conflicts within everyone. Choosing of this major proj suck really. Hope all of this gna be over soon 

Happy 1st November!