Zouk

Zouk tonight to celebrate Limxuan and Alvin birthday

 

Collected my race pack for Nike We Run 2013 today and I h8 the shirt a lot bcoz it's a V neck shirt. Caught my eyes on Nike Free Flyknit but it's really expensive and it cost $259 :-( Anyone wna be kind soul and sponsor me the shoe? Hehe, quite excited for the 10km marathon but at the same time, I dread it... It's been real long since I ran 10km. Hopefully this weekends there's time for me to clock my 10km timing again :>

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I've come to a point whereby I don't give a shit to anything anymore. Every single thing just make me so tired... Never hated something so much before. Honestly, I'm better off alone than to be stuck somewhere I've to take what's thrown to me. I thought I'm able to handle everything but I was so wrong. I couldn't and the only thing I can do is to watch us completely fall apart, becoming strangers. The saddest thing, you don't even give a damn. I never like the idea of giving up on people but this time round, I've no choice but to give up on you. I surrender, I give up. I wish you well budz

Perfect Sunday

Been long

It's been very very long since I'd a proper  post. It's been a week since school started and I guess I'm not used to it. I think I'm gna die this sem with all the calculations and drawing modules. Ah, the steps to being an engineer isn't easy after all.

A lot of them are going for intern this semester which left me alone in school :-( No more smoking kakis already, no more B as my study buddy bcoz he got no more exam. This sem gna be studying-alone sem:<

No longer that close with my classmates but still on talkable term. Things just got awkward, really really awkward between us. I want things to go back to normal, go back to the past. Is it still possible?

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If every single things I did does not change anything between us, I would rather give up and stop fighting. I'm so tired of fighting for our friendship when you don't give a shit at all. Yes I may look pathetic to you but no, you don't know how much this friendship mean to me. If our friendship can stop overnight, I really don't know what am I to you in the past, what you treat me as in the past

Thursdate

Spending my 2nd day of school with B! Head all the way down to RWS to fetch him from work then had my gelato ofc! Sentosa made me wanna so halloween so badly... But I guess I'm missing it this year. Nevertheless, thank you for everything. My love for gelato will never be as strong as my love for chiu -*

Prawning

Instead of the usual drinking Friday night, we spent it at prawning. 3hours of prawning session and caught 28prawns in total. I rather do anything that's boring but with you around than to go somewhere fun and exciting without you by my side.

Sea Aquarium

Belated birthdate with my cunt at Sentosa. Last minute decision to visit the aquarium, it's also our virgin trip and yes we do had a lot of fun instead disturbing the fishes. Day out with her never fail to fill with photos. Tried touching some of the sea creatures and the sea cucumber is really gross... Love the jellyfishes inside bloop bloop hehe

Wish I'm not alive

Why do I care so much about you when you give no shit about me. Why do I do so much things for you when you did nothing at all? Why am I always the only one putting in the efforts to fight for us when you were sitting down one side? I don't know if I'm trying too hard or it's just never enough. Even though I'm the willing party to do all these things for you, but the least you can do is to not push me away...

I don't give a shit about others saying I deserve someone better bcoz I still believe that you aren't the kind of people they talk about and I still hold onto the hope that one day you will treat me better. Even if you don't, at least continue let me treat you good. Don't push me away. 

I'm a girl, I need all the attention, care and love too. Why do I feel like I'm begging all these things from you every single time? Is it too much to ask for?

I can sacrifice every single thing for you, sacrifice people in my life just for you. I can give up everything just for you. 

I gave you everything. I gave you the best of everything; my heart, my soul, my pride, my ego basically every single thing. I've nothing left for myself. I'm only left with my shit life. If you want, you can have it then it's truly you have everything of me. I've done so much for you, isn't it enough? Or is it not?

I know you can live without me I know it's better for you without having me by your side. I know I'm a burden in your life. And you don't know how much I need you in my life, you don't know how much I can't live without you. 

In the process of loving you, I forgotten how to love myself... I'm losing myself, I'm destroying myself. Do I really deserve all these for you?

I miss you and I love you....

Prawning

Sent B's parents to the airport! Last minute prawning session and I caught 3/6 prawns yay! Had the best prawns ever. Love night like this with you

Sonar

Exotic Experience Pt 2

D-5:  Arrived in Cape Town in the mid afternoon. Headed to Ostrich Farm, had fun feeding the them as well as eating their meat hehehe. Get to stand on the ostrich eggs bcoz I can. Went up to the table mountain which is one of the 7wonders of the nature. The sunset there was awesome!

D-6: Maiden's Cove in the morning for some photo taking session then to Hout Bay Habour for seal spotting. So disappointed that all of them were pigging on the rocks and not moving at all :-( Fish Hoek Beach for lunch and well, I've never ever seen such a beautiful beach before. I mean I only see it in movies. Done something off my bucket list which was feeding the seagulls. Yay!

Boulders Beach up next for African Penguin. They were so kuteee! Can't get my eyes off them! And finally the Cape Point and Cape of Good Hope! :>

D-7: Harold Porter National Botanic Garden in the morning and there's a lot of different plants I've never see in my life before. Hermanus New Habour for whale spotting! Even though we didn't get to spot the whale close but still we managed to take nice photos off the scenery! Ostrich for dinner and it's the best dinner I ever had in South Africa