Goodbye 2012. You had been a wonderful year for me but I'm hoping for a better one still.

With love, Me

2012

As usual, I'm gonna sum up my 2012! In this year, I'm 18 this year. I can say 18 is the age where you started to spend alot money. It's where you start to club and drink all these. I done my 4th and 5th tattoos as well. I guess this year it's the year I travelled more than once haha. I went bkk twice, Malaysia as well as Indonesia! Most importantly, I travelled with my friends for the first time :-D The most steady person I ever met int life definitely is Jasmine -*

Started my Poly life in Ngee Ann also. I met wonderful friends! Like Jasmine Piong/Tan, Jesphne, Diyanah as well as my T1M5! :-) Thanks for making my freshie year wonderful. I cca-hop from basketball to track. And this year, I left basketball or should I say basketball officially left my life.

I got my driving license this year within the span of 5months. So glad :-D Though its been a hard year for me but there's still good stuffs! Wonderful people made my life definitely! And there's new people in my life like Cheryl, Suann and Xizhi. So bliss to have every single one of you in my life.

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Piong- Thanks for being there despite me being irritating towards you most of the time. And thanks for accompany me when I'm being left alone and also, being the most steady person in my life. Despite all the last minute decision I made, you still support me. And also, hearing me out when I'm feeling troubled xoxo

Monkey- Hello monkey! Surprised that you are being named here? :-) Well, thanks for being so naise towards me even though sometimes you ignore me :-p Without you, I would have one lesser person to talk to me everytime. Even though all the outings we planned ended up failed, I'm sure there's one which will succeed! See you later on ;-) Muacks xoxo

Bff/Hubz- Hello my dearest baby love. Even though we seldom meet up but I'm glad that we never ran out of topic to talk about. Thanks for being there for me ever since 2009 and remember we were once enemy? Hehe I will never forget how we became friends and close. Xoxo

Garfield- I guess it's been months since we last met but I will never forget you.

Usual Love- Hello hello!!! Thanks for being there and I'm glad we are still as one after we graduated from Jws. You all are the only close friends I left after I graduated. I cherished every single moments I had with you even though we seldom meet up xoxo

Steamboat

Awesome day out with the awesome people! Start off my day at Comcentre. For those who are close to me will definitely know my iPhone 5 had been experiencing some issue with the lock button. So, now I have to wait for Apple's reply whether they are willing to waive off the cosmetic damage charges. 

Next up, I bought an ultra cute phone cover for my iPhone which is Hello Kitty one :-) Ion for some Royce Shopping Spree! I swear it produced the best chocolate ever! Meet up with the rest and bugis for steamboat and gift exchange after that. So blissful to have all of them in mua life. Can't wait for our chalet in January! :-D

People that I hate most

Type 1: Egoistic It's the 21st century already and why be egoistic? Nobody gonna like you and no one owns you a living. So get a life and start thinking for others instead of you winning in every single things.

Type 2: Last minute If you gonna make some last minute decision, don't be mad when someone can't make it or disagree with it because the fault lies in you for not saying it beforehand.

Type 3: Silent mugger Stop telling everyone that you didn't study for the test and you scored higher than anyone. It doesn't kill you while you admit for studying. No one will blame you for that. It's how funny there's definitely a silent mugger in every class

Type 4: Typical xmm Hello, don't act like a bee or what following a guy wherever they are or even so, being there when there's a group of guy. Shame on you, grow some backbone pls. And even though I started smoking when I'm underage, however I don't support one. If you are not of age, don't smoke. If you don't have enough money to buy a pack, don't smoke.

Merry X'mas

Mua first post about x'mas in this year. This year is like no other, drinking and chilling out. My 18th year of x'mas and up till now I still have the kid's mentality that I want x'mas prezzie every year.

Dear Santa, I'd been a good girl this year, can I have my x'mas prezzie? :-D

Legend

Oh well, I'm a legend because I survived yesterday. Truth is no one will get to know when's the actual doomsday. So live your life like it's the last! Spent my so called "last day on earth" at Malaysia.

Got myself loots from F.O.S as well as cheap manicure and pedicure at RM156 inclusive of leg mask, spa and gelish. I can say Singapore charge the same as them or more if you are gonna do this and that. Great day spent and we were discussing about BKK over there when it's like 3months more to go?

Speaking of BKK make me so excited right now. Can't wait to go shopping sprees again, bringing back 10kg or more worth of clothing and most importantly, cheap splurge! I couldn't imagine how the hell I managed to bring back a bag worth of 9kg ++ of clothing the previous time I went. It's like I just buy without any consideration. But hey, where can you find such cheap deal uh.

X'mas in 3 days time and where's my secret santa!? Anyway I think I got this weird buys for nail varnish. Recently I bought O.P.I polish reviver, model owns nail polish, luminous nail polish as well as some weird 60 colours 2 ways brush polish. Omg, I can't wait to receive all my parcels hopefully before x'mas so I can comfort myself there's secret santa.

My journey ends here

*WARNING: THIS GONNA BE AN EMOTIONAL POST*

Today mark the end of my basketball journey as well as u18 milo cup. Up till now I couldn't figure out the actual reason why I stop playing basketball. What I miss most was the spirit of team jws. In this team, I learned how to play basketball, I found wonderful friends as well as teammates. They are actually the one that made my secondary school life exciting and wonderful. In the past I would always wonder how life would be without them. Honestly it sucks because no one can replace them in my heart. After graduated, we slowly grew apart and that's broke my heart the most. We don't spend every day like we used to anymore. Honestly, I miss the team.

When I reach Poly, I grew ambitious. I wanted something more so I left the team myself. Every steps I made I know I wouldn't regret because I'd so much memories in it. Basketball is not just an ordinary orange ball. To me, it brings me and my teammates together. Bond us together and well, it actually made me teared.

Thanks so much for all the memories. Keong, Germ, Gaomei, Bird, Xiaoqiu you all are the bestest friends I ever had in the team as well as my first friend in the team. I love every single one in the team.

Pain = Pleasure

Did I mention I'd add on to my tattoo collections? Got my 4th and 5th tattoo @ Steelheart and I swear this artist is fucking good unlike my previous one. And I swear my previous tattoos are fugly as it fade and smudge. Oh god.

Post Exam Activity

Town with Jasmine right after PMA paper. Been so long since I dress up and doll myself up because you know, I'm too lazy to do that when I've school and I find it no point too.

Scary truth

What's scarier? Someone you don't understand, someone you too understand or someone you never know at all? Have you ever ask yourself this? Well personally I think someone you understand too much is the scariest. It's like you literally read their mind, know what they are thinking and know what they wanna do next. Isn't this kind of people the scariest? At least people you don't know will never harm you in one way or another. You are just another passer by in their life. Well, life is such a scary thing. Sometimes I wish I'm not alive.

Legoland

First trip to Legoland Malaysia and I think it's not worth it at all as the rides inside are more suitable for children. Planning to go PutriHabour but plan fail as the tix are expensive...

THIS IS SEX!!

So gr8 to get my license after like 10 months? This journey had been consuming a lot of my time as well as spending a lot money just for the lesson. Well, it had been paid off! Was feeling extremely nervous for the past few days because I'm afraid I couldn't do well. Had been praying hard I won't get Teck Whye route however I got route 6 in the end. Luckily, lady luck was on my side during my TP. I made a grave mistake by stopping infront of the zebra crossing because the bbdc car suddenly stop after it had move off but my instructor didn't penalized this! Millions thank to the tester for being sucha kind-hearted :-)

And well, no more L plate and say hi to triangle plate. Got my class 3 license today YAY \(*v*)/ Can't wait to go on the road soon!!!

POL-ITE

Summing up my POLITE season and it went... Incredibly gr8t! Through Team Ngee Ann, I've learn that hard work doesn't pay off, commitment too! So what if you work hard for every training, so what if you came for every single training? You don't get to play. That's the cruel fact of Ngee Ann basketball.

There's so many people asking me to stay but up to now, I've no idea what I really want. I mean, whether I still have the passion for basketball a not or its just the team that made me lose faith? I guess all these will reveal after U18. For the time being, I will toughen myself up, train my stamina and speed for track hehe

Signed up for gym orientation few days ago and now I can't wait to get started with my gymming session!!! 8) To who it may concern, I will come back stronger be it for track and basketball I once told myself, if you don't appreciate me, someone out there will. So don't worry Siqi! If you are not in team Ngee Ann basketball, you will end up in somewhere. Someone out there will appreciate your talent! ^_^

So ya, goodbye to Team Ngee Ann for the time being and I wish you all well. Maybe it's just me that I couldn't accept the cultural change that fast or maybe I'm not good enough to match up your standard. Forgive me for being selfish that I'm not going to train and work hard with anyone. Blame me for being ambitious blame me for wanting more blame me for leaving without a word, blame me for giving up so easily because I'm a year 1 and not a secondary 1 student anymore.

Had been wondering what will change if I devote my life all to basketball. Will I be a better player or will I be a lousier player instead. As the day are getting nearer and nearer, infact it's the next day I felt excited. It's like I'd been expecting it for way too long. Rather than wasting time on something I will never be good at, I will use my strong point in something else.

3rd match ever since POL-ITE started. After tonight, I'm very determined to follow my decision. I don't wanna be sad anymore. I don't wanna cry over basketball anymore. I don't wanna be a substitute for anybody. Maybe I wasn't included in your plan. Maybe I'm just not good enough. Maybe, maybe. There's so many "maybe" running through my mind but I couldn't figure out what's the best maybe. I was told to practice what I preach but I was never given a chance to.

All along I just wanna prove myself. I just wanna contribute to the team but it seems that I've no chance at all. I'm so tired of everything. I'd been training hard, I'd been putting in all my efforts but why it isn't recognize? I'd been crying inside every single time after match. I guess I will have to take a break after POL-ITE. It's really torturous...

Will I be happier if I join track right from the start?

SPOOKS

Another halloween night at Sentosa with awesome people! Yayness because we manage to go to all the haunted house! Thanks for the night awesome people.