Had been wondering what will change if I devote my life all to basketball. Will I be a better player or will I be a lousier player instead. As the day are getting nearer and nearer, infact it's the next day I felt excited. It's like I'd been expecting it for way too long. Rather than wasting time on something I will never be good at, I will use my strong point in something else.

3rd match ever since POL-ITE started. After tonight, I'm very determined to follow my decision. I don't wanna be sad anymore. I don't wanna cry over basketball anymore. I don't wanna be a substitute for anybody. Maybe I wasn't included in your plan. Maybe I'm just not good enough. Maybe, maybe. There's so many "maybe" running through my mind but I couldn't figure out what's the best maybe. I was told to practice what I preach but I was never given a chance to.

All along I just wanna prove myself. I just wanna contribute to the team but it seems that I've no chance at all. I'm so tired of everything. I'd been training hard, I'd been putting in all my efforts but why it isn't recognize? I'd been crying inside every single time after match. I guess I will have to take a break after POL-ITE. It's really torturous...

Will I be happier if I join track right from the start?

SPOOKS

Another halloween night at Sentosa with awesome people! Yayness because we manage to go to all the haunted house! Thanks for the night awesome people.

HHN2

Great day spent in USS! Halloween was much more merrier with every single one of 'em. All the fun, those scary moment, haunted house thrills as well as the riding of human was great even though there's school in the morning.

Crushed

POL-ITE started. Somehow I wasn't happy to be in the team, I wasn't happy in basketball. After what happened today, I really don't feel like staying in basketball anymore... I feel so unappreciated by people and  I don't think I have any passion for basketball anymore....

Even though I've met many wonderful people in basketball but basketball made me shed so much tears, basketball made my heart ache. Ever since 21st Jan 2010, I lost all my hopes. I don't wanna give up but looking back at those tears I shed, those heart breaking moments, I gave up. I'm struggling now and I don't want to anymore. It's a tiring to hope.

What's the point of feeling unhappy over a non-living things? I really don't understand why you doesn't want me to play. Is it because you don't trust me? Is it because I've not enough experience? Is it because I'm not good enough? Is it because I'm too short or is it because I'm a year 1? Why do you have to crash my hopes time and time again? So many whys running through my head...

So I guess I've really made up my mind this time round if this decision gonna make me smile, make me happy. Well, most probably POL-ITE will be my 2nd last tournament in my basketball life since I've not much confident for getting in team for IVP.

It's the first day of school today and I was pretty excited way before that but I dread school now. I don't like my new semester lecturers. They were way too strict with punctuality :-( I don't like my new semester modules because it's all about maths and physics... Coach finally selected the team player for POL-ITE.

To my dearest friend. I know how you feel deep inside when you weren't selected for the team. I wanted to comfort you but I couldn't find the right words to. Somethings in life no matter how much you want it, no matter how much you work hard for, you will never get it. So, let's work hard together for the coming IVP alright? I believe you can do it. :-)

Bangkok

4 days of non stop shopping, eating, watching tv, laughters and the cycle goes on. It's a great getaway this time round because it's a few days before school reopen. Baggage exceed the purchased limit!