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One of the reason I don't want to head back is because I know it's like very awkward. I miss you all but on the other hand, I know I'm never important in your life. We are from the same batch, we went through everything together but seems like you all are closer to her which is so disappointing. It's alright, I'm used to this kind of feelings. I feel so lousy, I feel so bad. How I wish time like that will come back even though I know it's never possible again. I'm not strong, I can't continue pretending nothing has ever happened before. I choose to escape.