when I started choosing this 18th path, I already know the consequences of everything. there's no more turning back. I know I'm all out to kill myself bc that's the only way I can completely destroyed myself in your hands indirectly
it doesn't kill you but it kill me and I want myself dead so badly so that I can start afresh
I don't know since when my life started screwing up but we both know what's the reason, the cause behind it
