Finally get my IT fair pay after like 2 months? So an impromptu(?) trip to town as B wna alter his shirt and his jeans. Caught Grown Ups 2 and I finally get to try the-everyone-talking-about M(-a-)ki San. Had Genki Sushi for our very late dinner instead of our ice cream plan. I think B had grown a bit fatter from all the eating and eating when going out with me.

I'm sorry if I hurt you with my past I hope you know that it isn't easy for me too. I'm sorry that I kept it from you for so long. I'm sorry that I wait until today to tell you every single thing. You know what's the most heart warming thing you ever said to me? "I'm here for you" Thank you for accepting my past, thank you for everything. Like I said, I can't be anymore thankful to have you in my life.

I'm strong because I told myself even if hurricane hit me, I will have to stand very very strong so I won't fall. I'm strong because I don't want people to use my weakness and hurt me back. I'm strong because I tired of getting hurt. I'm strong because I know how does it feel like to be weak and I know how does it feel like to be hurt by people

Mama Teo's 48th

The woman in my life finally grow a year older. Thanks for showering your love, care, concern and money all these while. I'm sorry for being such a disappointment every single time, I'm sorry that I never listen to you once but trust me mama, someday I will make you really proud and I will make sure you will lead a comfortable life. I hope you can promise me that you will never grow old, you will never leave me and you will never let me be alone. I will never know how to handle it if one day you ever leave me, if one day I'm all alone. BIGGEST LOVE TO MA HEROINE

 

Caught Wolverine earlier on then supper @ Timah. Always having gr8 times together with my "SOT KIA" groups because we can talk about everything.

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Late night thoughts

I don't want you to know how hard I'm struggling to forget you, move on within this 2 years. I don't want you to know that I'm such a loser because I can't let go. I don't want you to know that I've been liking you all these while. I don't want you to know I'm weak. I don't want you to know that I feel so pathetic for loving you so much and so long. I feel like a loser because I'm so afraid to lose you...

 

Finally get to meet up with lovelies even though every single time isn't full strength. I will grow fat whenever I'm out with you. Thank you for making my night well with such impromptu plan, happy girl with new charles and keith sandals. :>

So it's 14th July and Happy 21st Birthday Johnathan. Pls be happy because I don't wna see you sad. It's their loss if they ditch you for someone better because you are good enough already. You are like a big brother to me which I hate admitting to. Good luck in your future endeavor in NUS and train harder so you can play like Kobe next time :-) 

Tgis

 

Crazy playhouse night, happy girl iz me because I finally get to take photo with someone I find very pretty since I was in sec2. :>

Alone and empty

Sometimes I wish I can mute all the voices in my head, numb all the feelings in my heart and cut my thoughts off. Sometimes it really hurt... I think a lot but I don't tell you all my thoughts just part of it. I don't want to let you know all my thoughts so I rather it destroy me. I hope you know I get affected easily by you, your words thoughts and actions. When I'm alone, I feel like a pathetic shit. I mean like I crave for your care and love. That's all I ever wanted from you, nothing more.

Sometimes I'm wondering must I really cry infront of you so you will know that I'm very upset, and everything is tearing me apart? You told me actions speak louder than words but I just wna tell you that words are the one that kill people inside out. The tongue is like a sharp knife, killing people silently. Even though it hurt, even though it's breaking my heart I'm still gna press on.

Even if there's thousands of reason to leave, I will find that one reason to stay by your side.

Every girl's needs

Every girl needs a man; the kind that will treat you right as well as others; the kind that has enough respect for himself, family, and others; the one that will change for you to just be with you. The kind that searches for you with his heart, the kind that can be trusted alone with a room full of many other beautiful ladies, the kind that won’t cheat on you cause he knows he’s got all he wants and needs already, the kind that’s willing to be your friend and lover, the kind that doesn’t mind calling early in the morning to say good morning and late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning and tell you a good night story or talk to you until you fall asleep. That kind that will do anything for you, even if it’s just to buy your favorite kind of candy. The kind that will defend and fight for you, the kind that won’t ditch you for his friends when you need him the most, the kind that won’t leave you lonely and wondering. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one.” The kind that appreciates you for the things to do for him, even if they’re small gestures. The kind that actually thanks you for the little love notes you leave him, the kind that is willing to wait for you when you’re falling behind, the kind that will actually open the door for you, take you out on dates once in a while and buy you flowers cause it’s a Wednesday. The kind that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him, the kind that reminds you that he loves you and that he’s happy with you in case you forget. The kind that kisses your forehead when you’re down, the kind that tells you to be strong and not to cry, the kind that will go through thick and thin with, and for you, the kind that just loves you for who you are. That kind of man, that’s the kind you keep.

Hurt

I came to realized that most of my life, I'd been fighting for people and no one fight for me. Am I really not worth the fight?

Old place

 

So we went back to the place we met and did the same things 2 years back. Though some things were different now but then I'm glad that we never really drift. And yes, mission accomplished^^

2 years back I'm thankful that I met you, I started talking to you and going out with you, becoming BFF (Bad friend forever aka Bestfriend forever). I've never regret letting you in my life.

School gonna start in 3 days time, I'm not prepared for anything not even knowing my CTs result because I know I'm gonna attend retest for all modules and I'm lazy to study the same shit again and again. Thanks Ngee Ann for being xtra ordinary because your exam papers are xtra ordinary hard too :>

And this is for a very good friend of mine who drifted away from me. Just remember that I'm always here for you and I'm always trying my best to salvage our friendship. Remember budz4life? Yes, we will be for life and nothing else. Though I really feel left out sometimes, but it's ok. I still love you :-)

Sometimes I found myself being extremely pathetic to drown myself in alcohol every single time I am down. I hate myself for being so emotional but yet I can't cry to anyone. I hate the tears choking feelings because my tears just don't fall. I need a good cry, I need to cry every single shit out. Tell me I'm not that strong, tell me that I'm gonna fall down anytime. I really don't know.... how long more I can stand this strong.

Adventure cove again with piggeh and co. Even though we didn't manage to ride on every single ride but still, gr8 day out with them.

Caught Pee Mak with le piggeh on Sunday and this movie was gr8! More of like a comedy and a sad movie instead of a horror one.

Virgin trip

Adventure cove with le girls during our school holiday and it's been so so long since the 4 of us go out together. And thanks for the great company every single time, forever no stop joking at all times. Can't wait to see you all during school reopen ;)

Hangover 3 with da piggeh right after work. Thank you for cheering me up, being there for me whenever I'm upset.

Favourite day of the month, hehe it was well spent.

OPUS JAY 2013

The most awesome thing ever happened on tonight which is JAY CHOU concert! It's the happiest day of my life because I finally get to see him in live as well as listening to his songs live. And fan girl mode straight away on once the concert start! It's a pity that I couldn't get the bear and the cap... Sigh :/ 

周董 谢谢你这是十二年来陪在我身边 就像你所说 你要唱歌给我们听到老，我也会听你的歌到老。你要唱歌唱到不能唱为止，我也会听你的歌到我听不到为止。我会永远挺你，用会支持你。我们两年后再见，我爱你周董

Post Exam

Today mark the end of the unbearable common test which means freedom from books and nonsense for 2 weeks. Last minute decision to club @ zouk and time spend with you is never enough

Glad you came

Study session with da piggeh again and we suddenly talk about the past. How we met, we begin to talk and how we even meet for the first time. It all happens 2 years back. Yes, time flies... You are getting more and more important in my life.

I remember I used to tell you that "I don't know why, I don't like you but you are just the kind of BFF that I will get upset and jealous if there's any other girl near you" Haha, sound so stupid when we reminiscence about everything.

We stopped contacting each other for a year and yes, we somehow get back. Time spent together with you was always gr8. You never fail to make me laugh like today, I was so stressed up about my SOM paper and even teared, you just help me wipe my tears away.

I promise I will be by your side when you need someone. I promise I will hold the sky for you if it's gonna come crushing on you someday. I promise I will go through thick and thin with you. I promise I will go through every single obstacles in life with you. I promise I will stick to you regardless of sick, healthy, poor or rich. If all your karma gonna struck you someday, don't worry! I will always be here to make your life perfect.

I don't know how long it's gonna last but still; I loved you yesterday, I love you today, I love you tomorrow and always

Thankful

I hope there's 366days a year, 8days a week and 25 hours a day so I can spend it all together with you. Can't be anymore thankful to have you in my life. Good luck for your common test dearest piggeh

xoxo

Last minute decision to zouk up my Saturday after a long day of exam. Met up with the clique I clubbed together with a year ago... Everyone changed, it's like I'm a complete stranger to them after all... Complete crazy night as there's a lot of fights inside Phuture. Actually it's nice to club with them because they really go all out to protect you hehe. Galaxy after zouk :-) Anyway I saw my Desiree baby outside zouk hehe <3