Chengyee's 18th

This post dedicate to the woman I love the most apart from my mom. Thanks for being there for me all the time despite our hectic schedule. I'm so glad to meet you in my life and it's so amazing how we turned from enemy into bestfriend. Happy 18th birthday! And yes it's finally a full clique meet up! <3

Life's a bitch

I realized I've kept so many things to myself all these while and I'm starting to feel numb about it. What hurt the most is that we used to be so close and now we are nothing, everything just disappear into thin air. You can say that I'm being paranoid, choosy, fussy or what but I'm just stating the fact.

Am I simply just worth nothing? I hope not because everything prove me that. Up till now, I doubt I'm important in any of my friend's life. They can definitely live without me.

Pardon me for being straight forward. Usual Love, we used to be so close but it's a joke that I found out I mean nothing, today. Maybe it's a long ago thing but I finally accept the fact today. Thanks for showing me that I mean nothing to you all. You all are the let down because I'd trusted everyone so much, I'd put everyone in some important place of my life yet I got back nothing. What a waste of effort. And my Fav girls, we used to spend everyday together, be it in school or training. I can't believe that you all are closer to someone who's smaller than us. Or maybe she know how to bootlick every single one of you that's why you all are close to her?

Yesterday night M suddenly told me this "treat others like how you want to be treated" I can tell you that saying is bullshit. Nobody force you to treat them good and sometimes no matter how you treat well you treat them, they just take it for granted. In this ugly society, it don't work this way. People take advantages and they will only treat people who give them advantages good. What to do? This is life. This is reality. I'm numb to all these bullshit

Time spent with my girls was definitely great! I think we are  very efficient because the previous day we just thought of meeting up. Ended up at Thomson Rd. Had Fatboy for lunch and Salted Caramel for our snacks. This bunch of girls I met in Poly never fail to make my day and they will always be there for me be it good or bad.

Inferior

Whenever I see pretty girls, I will feel extremely inferior. It's like whatever they dress, no matter how they make up they will still be pretty. Sometimes I wish I'm one of them... I find myself bad in everything and I can never do thing right or nice. I've a lot of flaws, I envy people who take nice pictures, envy people who look pretty, envy people who's rich, envy people who study well and envy people with good friends.

Friends? I'd learn not to trust people easily after all the shit incident I'd went through. It's like, wtf? I treated you so good, I trust you so much yet you turn your back and bite me. Sometimes I feel pathetic for you because you do all these shits just to bring me down and achieve what you want.

Anyway I think my body clock is really spoilt. I just took a short nap for about 1 hr and here I'm feeling so awake and I can't believe for the past few days, I only had a few hours of sleep. I think there's a very serious  problem with me...

K, shall stop being so emo. God made me who I am and gave me what I needed. I shouldn't be greedy after all right? :)

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So many things running through my mind and many thoughts that I can't pen it in words. Whatever had been happening for the past few days somehow taught me in life we have to ignore some people and fuck care some things if not you will be unhappy bottling up everything.

Was reading Naomi's blog post in the afternoon, some guys thing and this suddenly hit me. What's up with those egoistic guys nowadays when it's the 21st century. Your ego will not fill your stomach, your ego will not bring you higher but otherwise. This particular friend of mine, his ego is very high. I didn't say there's something wrong with high ego but there's definitely something wrong when you put your ego first in everything. This friend of mine, he's always pushing blames to his surrounding friends but never once he realised it's his mistakes. He's constantly thinking that he's the best and everyone own him. C'mon you need to do some reflection of yourself and change for the better if not everyone gonna leave you someday.

Some thing you just have to accept it whether you like it a not. Not everything will go in your way and not everything goes like your past because you are going through new culture. You think you deserve it but someone out there will definitely think you don't deserve it. So how? Just swallow it up and move on because this is the path you had chosen. Why think of it constantly and upset yourself every single time? I've been there, feel that that's why I just accept it because I know even if I make a fuse out of it, nothing will ever change. Piece of advice: just fuck it and move on.

Nobody can ruin your day except you

This is sex

This weekend, had been working for this Ferrari Club event. It's really an eye-opening experience! Through this few hours, I've learnt a lot of things in life. I normally heard people saying "It's not good working for the rich" and now I know exactly what does it mean. I don't know if I'm considered lucky not to be born in a filthy rich family because I wouldn't know what's manner. I'm so glad my parents taught me about manners.

I can't wait for BKK trip woohooo ~.~

Yanjun's 17th!

  Bugis for twelve cupcakes then Raffles City for Buffet Town! :> I love buffet because I can eat a lot of different food and food make me happy   

 

Wala Wala

Wala with mua secondary school friends and I can conclude it's awesome even though there's some misunderstanding happen. :-) Had graveyard and snowball as well as shots.